Struggle

Some days are a struggle and some are just easy. Today was easy... A friend came and helped me, and things just moved smoothly. It was easy. The friendship is easy. Accomplishing things is easy. Getting things knocked off the list is easy.
Anger is hard for me these days. I have started struggling more and more with Anger. It wells up inside of me. I don't like being angry. I like to feel this happy and content feeling. I don't want to be upset with people.
I started a book last night, and every sentence was talking about People Pleasing, not taking care of yourself, and just being burnt out, exhasted.. etc. I just kept saying over and over.. That's me!! Especially the part about being exhausted and more emotional.. having meltdowns. That has been happening so much this last year. Especially since mom and dad moved.
I know I have God. I just can't feel him or his strength... I'm so weak right now.
My friends get back this week.. I could not be happier.