Twenty random things about me...
1. I like to be alone sometimes.
2. I love learning new things about people and life.
3. I have an awesome relationship with my mom and her side of the family.
4. I love to read random books about anything.
5. Deep Down.. I don't want to be alone forever. I want to get married and have a Christian family, but not for a long while.
6. I like when my friends phone me randomly to hang out and catch up.
7. I love to laugh
8. I like hunting, camping, and fishing.
9. I am extremely loyal.
10. I love to talk to people that I knew from way back when adn see how their lives have changed.
11. My mom never allowed me to use knives.. still she doesn't..
12. I'm a klutz.
13. I love to drive and jam.
14. I like to walk.
15. I am an adrenaline junkie...
16. I miss college...
17. I want to move back to Australia.
18. I love the Ocean and Beach and how the sky looks at night when i'm walking on the beach.
19. I love to buy shoes, but hate to wear them.
20. I love the adventures I have everyday, and the uncertainty of tomorrow... mostly the freedom to move whenever and whereever I want.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Amazing Love
Amazing Love, how can it be that you MY King would die for ME? Amazing Love I KNOW IT"S TRUE.
Crucified, laid behind a stone. You lived to die, rejected and alone. Like a rose trampled on the ground. You took the fall and thought of ME above ALL.
Fear not, for I have redeemed YOU; I have summoned YOU by NAME; YOU are mine. When you pass through the waters I will be with YOU; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you WILL NOT be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, YOUR God, the Holy One of Israel, YOUR Savior. -Isaiah 43:1-3
What an amazing thought. God knows me intimately and personally and has called me out of the crowd by my name to be his child. He wants to carry me through life and not let me get consumed. He is my Savior. He doesn't promise a life of no pain once I am consumed with him.. or even moments of lonliness on Earth. He does promise to help me through those. I am never truly alone. He is always holding me and taking care of me. He is in control of my life and my plans and where I am headed. He is in complete control.
I believe this is one area that it's OK to be selfish in. Each of us needs to be selfish in realizing that all of these "you"s are us. We need to share these things with others so they too can be selfish in knowing it was for them. It sounds weird.. but it's right.. you can be selfish and share. It was for you personally that he died. All of us, but you were at the top of his mind. He was thinking about you and your life to come.
Crucified, laid behind a stone. You lived to die, rejected and alone. Like a rose trampled on the ground. You took the fall and thought of ME above ALL.
Fear not, for I have redeemed YOU; I have summoned YOU by NAME; YOU are mine. When you pass through the waters I will be with YOU; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you WILL NOT be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, YOUR God, the Holy One of Israel, YOUR Savior. -Isaiah 43:1-3
What an amazing thought. God knows me intimately and personally and has called me out of the crowd by my name to be his child. He wants to carry me through life and not let me get consumed. He is my Savior. He doesn't promise a life of no pain once I am consumed with him.. or even moments of lonliness on Earth. He does promise to help me through those. I am never truly alone. He is always holding me and taking care of me. He is in control of my life and my plans and where I am headed. He is in complete control.
I believe this is one area that it's OK to be selfish in. Each of us needs to be selfish in realizing that all of these "you"s are us. We need to share these things with others so they too can be selfish in knowing it was for them. It sounds weird.. but it's right.. you can be selfish and share. It was for you personally that he died. All of us, but you were at the top of his mind. He was thinking about you and your life to come.
Memories
memory: playing in the rain in Brisbane... first time.. and I jumped off the dock into the brisbane river and swam around! It was a fun fun thing. Except it was hard to keep my jeans up when I was getting out.
The nets to keep the flies off our faces in the Outback.
Camo.. the ATV guide at King Ranch.
The huge rats at Noosa.
The amazing bus rides getting to know some of the best people in the World. This includes Dusty forgetting I was a girl... Oh! And all the nights being serenaded by Dusty. :)
One of my favorite memories... the first time we walked down to Sidney Harbor and saw the Sidney Opera House. It took my breath away. It was our first night in Sidney.. we just walked upon it. It brought tears to my eyes to see something so incredible up close.
The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still. -Exodus 14:14
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, Before you were born I set you apart. - Jeremiah 1:5
Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. -Matthew 6:34
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness for they will be filled. -Matthew 5:6
Do to others as you would have them do to you. -Luke 6:31
A new world, coming to me. Made just for me and those that I love. My Christian family. A loud voice said "now the dewlling of God is with men, and he will live with them. God himself will be with them adn be their God." No more sadness, tears, or hurt for that is gone with the first. From the throne bellowed "I am making everything new!" "These words are trustworthy and true." He is the alpha and Omega, beginning and end. He provides the water of LIFE. He who overcomes will inherit and be my son. Nothing evil will ever enter this new world. This perfect world. Jewels, crystal, and angels make up this new world. They walk along the gold street, and sit by the crystal sea. The Lord God Almighty is it's temple and it's light. His glory shines for all to see and worship. There will be songs of praise and honor. There will be a feast and joyous music to fill the air. The gates will never shut and there will be no darkness or night. Nothin impure will come near it. Only the names written in the Lambs book of Life will enter. -Paraphrase of Revelation 21
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. FOr our light adn momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen, for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. -2 Corinthians 4:16-18
BJ did the power walk in the middle of Noosa for an audience... :)
The nets to keep the flies off our faces in the Outback.
Camo.. the ATV guide at King Ranch.
The huge rats at Noosa.
The amazing bus rides getting to know some of the best people in the World. This includes Dusty forgetting I was a girl... Oh! And all the nights being serenaded by Dusty. :)
One of my favorite memories... the first time we walked down to Sidney Harbor and saw the Sidney Opera House. It took my breath away. It was our first night in Sidney.. we just walked upon it. It brought tears to my eyes to see something so incredible up close.
The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still. -Exodus 14:14
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, Before you were born I set you apart. - Jeremiah 1:5
Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. -Matthew 6:34
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness for they will be filled. -Matthew 5:6
Do to others as you would have them do to you. -Luke 6:31
A new world, coming to me. Made just for me and those that I love. My Christian family. A loud voice said "now the dewlling of God is with men, and he will live with them. God himself will be with them adn be their God." No more sadness, tears, or hurt for that is gone with the first. From the throne bellowed "I am making everything new!" "These words are trustworthy and true." He is the alpha and Omega, beginning and end. He provides the water of LIFE. He who overcomes will inherit and be my son. Nothing evil will ever enter this new world. This perfect world. Jewels, crystal, and angels make up this new world. They walk along the gold street, and sit by the crystal sea. The Lord God Almighty is it's temple and it's light. His glory shines for all to see and worship. There will be songs of praise and honor. There will be a feast and joyous music to fill the air. The gates will never shut and there will be no darkness or night. Nothin impure will come near it. Only the names written in the Lambs book of Life will enter. -Paraphrase of Revelation 21
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. FOr our light adn momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen, for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. -2 Corinthians 4:16-18
BJ did the power walk in the middle of Noosa for an audience... :)
Sunday, January 30, 2011
So Truly Blessed
Where you go, I'll go. Where you stay, I'll stay. When you move, I'll move. I will follow you.
All your ways are good. All your ways are sure. I will trust in you alone. Higher than my sight. High above my life. I will trust in you alone. -Chris Tomlin
This morning.. these words spoke to me. It seems that life finally slows down and lines up. Things start to fall in place. I find contenment. I am eager for the possibilities. Then "it's bad timing" happens. Things start to fall out of place. Uncertainty sets in. People make suggestions on changes I need to make. Jobs start to fall through.
I do trust you, Father. I know you're leading me. I know my path is secure in You. Please just make it all come together. I promise to continue to adore you through it all. I will not let the Devil win this battle. I will fight! With your strength and power I will win.
Guide my steps. Lead me to do your will. I don't want to move. I don't want to find another job. I don't want to continue fighting for my place everyday. I want to continue to serve you in the way I have been for the last year. If it is your will to move me... then do so. Please just help me.
The lyrics above are exactly what I'm feeling today. I vow to love as God loves, and who he loves. I promise to go where he goes. I promise to trust in him alone. You can't trust humans. Only God's ways are good. I will be in that way.
There is so much heaviness... But i have a faithful and true God who is going to get me through this. I do know that he is going to guide me. I do know that he will reveal his will. I'm getting a little impatient today...
Be blessed this week.
All your ways are good. All your ways are sure. I will trust in you alone. Higher than my sight. High above my life. I will trust in you alone. -Chris Tomlin
This morning.. these words spoke to me. It seems that life finally slows down and lines up. Things start to fall in place. I find contenment. I am eager for the possibilities. Then "it's bad timing" happens. Things start to fall out of place. Uncertainty sets in. People make suggestions on changes I need to make. Jobs start to fall through.
I do trust you, Father. I know you're leading me. I know my path is secure in You. Please just make it all come together. I promise to continue to adore you through it all. I will not let the Devil win this battle. I will fight! With your strength and power I will win.
Guide my steps. Lead me to do your will. I don't want to move. I don't want to find another job. I don't want to continue fighting for my place everyday. I want to continue to serve you in the way I have been for the last year. If it is your will to move me... then do so. Please just help me.
The lyrics above are exactly what I'm feeling today. I vow to love as God loves, and who he loves. I promise to go where he goes. I promise to trust in him alone. You can't trust humans. Only God's ways are good. I will be in that way.
There is so much heaviness... But i have a faithful and true God who is going to get me through this. I do know that he is going to guide me. I do know that he will reveal his will. I'm getting a little impatient today...
Be blessed this week.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Revelation
Well, I am embarking on a study of Revelation. This is one of the books that I start to read, but never quite read the whole thing. I always skip the middle. I got a workbook to help me through it. I am going to do this one every morning along with my daily reading. We shall see.
The thing that touched me most today was verse 3 of chapter 1. Blessed are those who read this and obey it.
I know this goes for the whole Bible, but as of late I've been searching for strength to get back in this Christian Warfare. I want to fight everyday. For the last year I have felt so weak. I've been numb.. even my prayers have no feeling. Just in the last months have I started to be revived. Now I am arming myself for this fight, and I will fight everyday.
The thing that touched me most today was verse 3 of chapter 1. Blessed are those who read this and obey it.
I know this goes for the whole Bible, but as of late I've been searching for strength to get back in this Christian Warfare. I want to fight everyday. For the last year I have felt so weak. I've been numb.. even my prayers have no feeling. Just in the last months have I started to be revived. Now I am arming myself for this fight, and I will fight everyday.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Deserve?
This word constantly troubles me. Do I get what I deserve? By whose standards? I do not have a lift to complain about at all... I am so grateful for every blessing bestowed upon me. I am so loved, cared for, and provided for. I just wonder somedays, when is it going to be my turn?
When will I find that man that I deserve? When will I finally have that friendship that I deserve? What about that job security that I deserve?
These run through my head. As I am entering my 27th year on Earth.. I feel this is the year. This year I may not find job security. I may be uprooted once again.. I have already found those friends that I deserve. But whatever it is... This year is going to be fabulous. I can feel it in the air. I feel it when I pray.
God is answering all of my prayers and questions. I am asking for specific things in prayer now, and am seeing results. My prayers are usually all about everyone else, and very general when I pray for myself. Not this year. This year I am praying specific prayers for myself. I am focusing on anger, forgiveness, health, self-control, and love. This year will be my year.
I pray for my friends daily... and I always include a section for those that need prayers that I might not remember by name, or even know that they need them. I will continue this. My selfishness this year has nothing to do with stopping to care for my friends and family. I think with my strengthening will come only caring more about others. I can already see this change happening.
I am so incredibly blessed to have what I have. I just wonder somedays... when is it my turn?
When will I find that man that I deserve? When will I finally have that friendship that I deserve? What about that job security that I deserve?
These run through my head. As I am entering my 27th year on Earth.. I feel this is the year. This year I may not find job security. I may be uprooted once again.. I have already found those friends that I deserve. But whatever it is... This year is going to be fabulous. I can feel it in the air. I feel it when I pray.
God is answering all of my prayers and questions. I am asking for specific things in prayer now, and am seeing results. My prayers are usually all about everyone else, and very general when I pray for myself. Not this year. This year I am praying specific prayers for myself. I am focusing on anger, forgiveness, health, self-control, and love. This year will be my year.
I pray for my friends daily... and I always include a section for those that need prayers that I might not remember by name, or even know that they need them. I will continue this. My selfishness this year has nothing to do with stopping to care for my friends and family. I think with my strengthening will come only caring more about others. I can already see this change happening.
I am so incredibly blessed to have what I have. I just wonder somedays... when is it my turn?
Sunday, January 16, 2011
God's Beauty
I'm doing a study on Spiritual Intimacy. Since I started today... I'm still on lesson 1. I'm doing it once a week. This morning was about Knowing God. Through his Spirit, we know him. The true Spirit of God is BEYOND our understanding. That is why he sent his Holy Spirit.. so that we can know his true Spirit.
Right now I am sitting on my parent's back porch in Costa Rica, watching the Pelican's feed, and Enjoying the magnificent Pacific Ocean. It is truly beautiful. It is a World that My God created. It is what I consider to be one of the most beautiful sites in the World. I love the Ocean. The vastness, power, and the way that it is an amazing World all it's own. There is an entire creation down there. The only place I have been that is more beautiful is the Carribbean or The Bahamas. The sunsets and rises are incredible. The bright Reds, Oranges, and Yellows.
Another place that I find truly breathtaking, are the Rocky Mountains. They take my breath away. I don't usually find beauty in cold places, but I do find them to be Magnificent. They are huge, Grand even. The colors of the snow, sun, and sets are just Amazing. The purples and blues.
One of my favorite places on Earth is Australia. It has every beauty that is offered. Beach, Mountains, Desert. There are these plunging cliffs that go straight down into the Ocean along the Southern Coast. Its amazing. Another thing that makes this country so Magnificent is the culture of the people. It forces you to fall in love with it more and more.
These are all ways that I am intimate with God. I have an intimate relationship with him because I see him everywhere. When I talk to someone, driving around, or traveling. He is everywhere. I learn more and more about Him in every experience I have in His World. It's a Magnificent thing to get to see My Dad everywhere I go.
Today I am grateful for the beauty around me, and the people who show God to me.
Right now I am sitting on my parent's back porch in Costa Rica, watching the Pelican's feed, and Enjoying the magnificent Pacific Ocean. It is truly beautiful. It is a World that My God created. It is what I consider to be one of the most beautiful sites in the World. I love the Ocean. The vastness, power, and the way that it is an amazing World all it's own. There is an entire creation down there. The only place I have been that is more beautiful is the Carribbean or The Bahamas. The sunsets and rises are incredible. The bright Reds, Oranges, and Yellows.
Another place that I find truly breathtaking, are the Rocky Mountains. They take my breath away. I don't usually find beauty in cold places, but I do find them to be Magnificent. They are huge, Grand even. The colors of the snow, sun, and sets are just Amazing. The purples and blues.
One of my favorite places on Earth is Australia. It has every beauty that is offered. Beach, Mountains, Desert. There are these plunging cliffs that go straight down into the Ocean along the Southern Coast. Its amazing. Another thing that makes this country so Magnificent is the culture of the people. It forces you to fall in love with it more and more.
These are all ways that I am intimate with God. I have an intimate relationship with him because I see him everywhere. When I talk to someone, driving around, or traveling. He is everywhere. I learn more and more about Him in every experience I have in His World. It's a Magnificent thing to get to see My Dad everywhere I go.
Today I am grateful for the beauty around me, and the people who show God to me.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Amazing Powerful Designer
He created the moon that reflects the sun,
He designed this World.
Our God is a designer. I always thought of him as a creator... which he is. To know what goes into designing something, making sure all works together, and see the end product; Our God did that for this World. More importantly for our lives.
I am unsure of what my future holds right now. I am unsure of where I'm going, but I know that God is answering every prayer that I pray. I have recently received answers to prayers that I only half-heartedly prayed. They were things that I wanted, not necessarily needed. He has delivered.
The most important has been challenges. When I am not challenged often enough, I get bored and that leads to drastic changes in life. Moving, Short Hair, and new Jobs. I prayed last year for challenges that made me learn new and exciting things daily. He delivered. I am learning so much about business, life, love, and farming. My farm adventures are fun. Chasing cows, Rolling out bails of hay, and feeding chickens. All in high heels... :)
The second prayer I prayed was for good friends. I have a lack here in East Texas. Seems everyone my age is married, has kids, and are settled in their lives. I normally do OK with this type, but it seems they think I'm strange for not following that path. This year.. I have become in involved with the College Age Ministry at my church. This has brought 3 of the most amazing friends into my life. It makes me miss my college friends, but these 3 are such a blessing. They seriously walked into my life the day after I prayed for better, stronger friendships.
The third was for a relationship. He has not answered this one completely, but has offered me options. The most important thing about the options he has given me, is that I have turned down the ones I know are not good for me. 2 guys that have been brought into my life, I know are just there to be friends, learn from each other, and remind me of my standards. It's almost like a test I'm passing. While it takes restraint when I'm with them... I know in the end I will benefit from holding out. So.. while he may not have the right guy asking me out right now, and yes... I have a guy in mind, I know that he is going to bring amazingness in his timing.
God's timing and design are amazing. It all works together for the best. It all makes life worth living. His design of this World, His People, and Our Lives astounds me every morning. I have been brought to my knees so much this last month, and am so gracious for God listening to my heart, not my words.
I pray for my friends daily, and I hope that those prayers are being answered as well. Prayer is an amazing and Powerful thing, created by an Amazing and Powerful God.
He designed this World.
Our God is a designer. I always thought of him as a creator... which he is. To know what goes into designing something, making sure all works together, and see the end product; Our God did that for this World. More importantly for our lives.
I am unsure of what my future holds right now. I am unsure of where I'm going, but I know that God is answering every prayer that I pray. I have recently received answers to prayers that I only half-heartedly prayed. They were things that I wanted, not necessarily needed. He has delivered.
The most important has been challenges. When I am not challenged often enough, I get bored and that leads to drastic changes in life. Moving, Short Hair, and new Jobs. I prayed last year for challenges that made me learn new and exciting things daily. He delivered. I am learning so much about business, life, love, and farming. My farm adventures are fun. Chasing cows, Rolling out bails of hay, and feeding chickens. All in high heels... :)
The second prayer I prayed was for good friends. I have a lack here in East Texas. Seems everyone my age is married, has kids, and are settled in their lives. I normally do OK with this type, but it seems they think I'm strange for not following that path. This year.. I have become in involved with the College Age Ministry at my church. This has brought 3 of the most amazing friends into my life. It makes me miss my college friends, but these 3 are such a blessing. They seriously walked into my life the day after I prayed for better, stronger friendships.
The third was for a relationship. He has not answered this one completely, but has offered me options. The most important thing about the options he has given me, is that I have turned down the ones I know are not good for me. 2 guys that have been brought into my life, I know are just there to be friends, learn from each other, and remind me of my standards. It's almost like a test I'm passing. While it takes restraint when I'm with them... I know in the end I will benefit from holding out. So.. while he may not have the right guy asking me out right now, and yes... I have a guy in mind, I know that he is going to bring amazingness in his timing.
God's timing and design are amazing. It all works together for the best. It all makes life worth living. His design of this World, His People, and Our Lives astounds me every morning. I have been brought to my knees so much this last month, and am so gracious for God listening to my heart, not my words.
I pray for my friends daily, and I hope that those prayers are being answered as well. Prayer is an amazing and Powerful thing, created by an Amazing and Powerful God.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Change
I have acquired a reputation in my family for bailing. I just walk out of life, and move. I make changes constantly. I don't like routine or being idle. I need new and interesting. This year I have had a lot of routine, and I take my change in small punches. I prayed for challenges to keep me interested in life in America. God delivered. Now it's a new year, and i'm leaving next week for Costa Rica. I will be spending a month taking care of my family's new hotel. This is a new challenge for me.
I know my parents are OK with the trips I take, the constant drives into Dallas, and the way I change my mind. They help me with these so that I will stay around. I am looking forward to a month in Costa Rica. I am going to tan, swim, meet people, work on my spanish... I'm happy.
I know my parents are OK with the trips I take, the constant drives into Dallas, and the way I change my mind. They help me with these so that I will stay around. I am looking forward to a month in Costa Rica. I am going to tan, swim, meet people, work on my spanish... I'm happy.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Accomplishment
Today has been a day of accomplishing things. I have accomplished dealing with a little bit of that anger. I have knocked everything off my list for the day. I have accomplished a lot today. I feel a little stronger. I feel a little less tired. I feel almost complete contentment.
I won't settle for less.. I have to remind myself everyday. No matter how it might look easier, or seem better at the moment.. I will not settle.
I'm looking forward to Saturday... I pray for what God has in store for my future this semester, summer, and next fall.
I won't settle for less.. I have to remind myself everyday. No matter how it might look easier, or seem better at the moment.. I will not settle.
I'm looking forward to Saturday... I pray for what God has in store for my future this semester, summer, and next fall.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Struggle
Some days are a struggle and some are just easy. Today was easy... A friend came and helped me, and things just moved smoothly. It was easy. The friendship is easy. Accomplishing things is easy. Getting things knocked off the list is easy.
Anger is hard for me these days. I have started struggling more and more with Anger. It wells up inside of me. I don't like being angry. I like to feel this happy and content feeling. I don't want to be upset with people.
I started a book last night, and every sentence was talking about People Pleasing, not taking care of yourself, and just being burnt out, exhasted.. etc. I just kept saying over and over.. That's me!! Especially the part about being exhausted and more emotional.. having meltdowns. That has been happening so much this last year. Especially since mom and dad moved.
I know I have God. I just can't feel him or his strength... I'm so weak right now.
My friends get back this week.. I could not be happier.
Anger is hard for me these days. I have started struggling more and more with Anger. It wells up inside of me. I don't like being angry. I like to feel this happy and content feeling. I don't want to be upset with people.
I started a book last night, and every sentence was talking about People Pleasing, not taking care of yourself, and just being burnt out, exhasted.. etc. I just kept saying over and over.. That's me!! Especially the part about being exhausted and more emotional.. having meltdowns. That has been happening so much this last year. Especially since mom and dad moved.
I know I have God. I just can't feel him or his strength... I'm so weak right now.
My friends get back this week.. I could not be happier.
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