Amazed by Perfection

Our Dad has a way of knowing exactly what we need and when we need. He has a way of touching lives with those around them.. when we are desperate for some hope. He has a way of showing us things and revealing things to us. It is always perfect timing.

I am not saying life is perfection.. because we are human and this is Earth. I am saying that our Dad and our lives with him are perfection. I am saying that even the tough times are used in a way to bring people together or to Glorify him. It is perfect. I have had an inspiring weekend of all of these things.

Weekends are hard for me. Sundays are emotional. Fridays are full.. Saturdays are busy.. Sundays are extremely busy along with extreme emotions for me. I sit in family meeting next to Morgan usually.. a seeker. I am brought to tears with his comments of belief and passion for our Dad. I am brought to tears during our thought time because I so desperately want him to become one of my brothers. I want him to take that last step.

I am brought to tears with the desire to hold the hand of the person next to me when we are talking to our Dad. I crave that personal touch.. that reassurance that I'm not alone. The comfort of a hand in mine praising HIM. I yearn for a hug from a brother/sister. A comfort that I'm not alone in this life.

This Saturday there was a lot on my mind. Saturday night when I got back to my apartment I desperately just wanted to talk to someone. I just wanted to be reminded that I wasn't forgotten about over here. My friend Jessica skyped me about then.. just randomly. She is living in France right now. I haven't talked to her in about 3 years. It was one of the best conversations ever. I love how you can just pick up with certain people .. just like you spoke yesterday. I find that in our Family this is often easy. We spent 2 1/2 hours on skype video call just talking. It was the most encouraging thing. It's hard to put into words, but it was just perfection.

I am continually driven to my knees with desire/passion/love. I am constantly thinking about the people here and my role in their lives. How I am being used to mold their lives. How they are molding me everyday into this new person. The timing in my life has always been perfect. The people brought into it.. and the things I have learned from them has always been perfect. The things I have been taught, and passed on to others in need has always been perfect. The hardest things in my life has turned out to be perfect. My life IN HIM is perfect.

Since he gives me this perfection everday.. I am doing all I can to give him perfection. I am not perfect, but everyday I strive for it. Everyday I try harder and harder to be like him and closer to him. Give him my full life. This week I am going to make a new committment and grow closer to him than I have in a long time. I am going to spend my week in "thought and study" completely. No TV or Movies this week. No internet this week. Complete devotion to HIS word and life. You'll hear from me next week after the retreat.

"We cry Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lamb.. We fall down and lay our Crowns at the feet of Je--s. The Greatness of mercy and Love at the feet of Je--s. And we cry Holy holy holy, and we cry Holy holy holy. and we cry holy holy holy is the lamb."